the kind of complex military grade ptsd that makes me both situationally mute n unpredictably n shamelessly vocal in the face of an abusive person/system (anyone can get it)
always oscillating
like Ive violently wished Death on every version of people who cause harm (n Id do it again) n Ive lost years to the silence n peaceful renunciation after institutionalization
finding my voice late in Life has come with many overcorrections that return me to the page
still we protect us by any means necessary every day
Knowing who to Be angry at is crucial root/work
its Death to all abusers forever (atone, transform, n/or disappear)
on behalf of the children (all of them, everywhere)
at the natural rhythm
in gratitude,
