Tag: meta

the departing returns you

I like to go away someTimes

into the safety of my own space n mind I find restoration n belonging in other worlds where peace is the norm

my departures have Changed since Samadhi was Born

I find mySelf slipping away to my quiet place(s) with a tired face

maybe I do dissociate (– or is it disassociating?)

I have had to find reNewed ways to merge my unSeen departures with my shared Realities

Now I (co)create consciously n that validates me sustainably

to Be gifted with Samadhi

I can See the Divine responsibility I am called to accept in each moment

this journey is no longer jus about me

one Time an elder said in front of me something along the lines of

‘who Knows where She would have Been without that baby’

n it was a Knowing message – it didnt feel limiting

it was one that comes from someone who has Seen how a new Life shifts all things

n for those who are willing to lean in

to turn the gaze inwardly

it is a multidimensionally transformative blessing

parenting is an undertaking

n growing FutureSeeds take over — reaching from above n below guiding from a place we forget we Know

I feel humbled to observe that there is a quickening of the Remembering

because of pure Love

we carry out our Living testimonies

last year I journeyed deep

dancing dangerously close to the edge at the risk of losing everything

when I met the grieving n realized what was Being asked of me

naturally

in my naivety I believed I was meant to sacrifice all of me

I mean

that is what had Been shown to me

the martyr(ing)

I wanted to Be like that

withering away jus to say

“I was here

…and there”

I spent a decade attempting to play all of the parts

n did

now I write in wonder n awe with all of the sides of me I hid

I write in a chaotic clamorous stillness

Live alchemy

n in humility for all of the ways that my guides have protected me on my journey(ing)

six years of Soulmate unity three years of conscious parenting n Soul retrieving seven months of Living separately 13 months of no drinking n no sexing one year of microdosing addressing two decades of avoiding Being wholly emBodied

I under-inner-over-stand now

the ability to experiment is a privilege

one that is no longer lost on me

I was willing to lose everything

Saturns lessons reflect the consequential nature of EarthTime n under Her instruction I find mySelf back on the good Timeline

twelve weeks n several months of anciently futuristic somatic healing therapies n my memories came back to me

the veils of amnesia were removed from my eyes by matriarchal guides

masterful Source conduits

they led me to consider more possibilities

maybe this is the longest Life that I have ever Lived

n maybe for me this is the other side

I See Heaven every Sunrise

they say the Truth can Be felt

n now that I have learned how to receive help I move with an unwavering faith n an impenetrable auric grace(fulness)

(in n for my Self)

the fragmented scattered parts of me

the ways that I shapeshifted

trying to get others to See

it all has Been returned to me

in the release of fearful traits

from the fascia all of the hate loops back around n into the ground

fueling me

“Free Energy”

n in some inconvenient ways I am still jus the same

n probably always will Be

but when I sit down to put my Heart on the page today I am the whole melody emBodied

thank you(s) for reminding me

& so it is + will Be.

R

2020 visions

here we are in the future

if eye have learned anything at all in this last decade it is

FREEDOM

since critical mass has been reached we have been accelerating exponentially

we are long past the tipping point

if you are reading this

we fucking did it !!!

some of us may be feeling an overwhelming desire to pull back

to move differently

call all of your energy back

eye often use the twilight saga to explain the energy of the newly awakened in america

those who have just opened their eyes for the first time

are the most reckless unstable erratic and impressionable

like newborn vampires – their venom is potent

their young flame energy can put others in danger

we still have much work to do

to continue to archive / immortalize / transcribe our Truths

so that those who are beginning to See now

for the first Time

do not open their eyes to illusions

it is up to each and every one of us to revoke consent from entities that are misaligned with all that is Truthful and Light

look closer now

eye encourage creators and creatrixes to work to divest their content from major platforms

use new search engines at this time

g**gle is becoming somewhat of a dead end

read terms and conditions

and try to write every single day

this is the week we have been waiting for

overanalyzing

eye know that eye first began to see visions of 2020 almost 8 years ago

under a full moon outside Otay lake

eye knew that things would never be the same

and that if eye spoke too much about it that eye would sound insane

so eye have waited

it has been so painful to wait

it has been so lonely

but

here we are in the future

& so it is

meta

interactions with peers online and in travel have inspired a constant exploration of the undeniable role that the infamous internet plays in our conceptions of culture.
behind the guise of an onscreen alias, support can be found for every niche, every persona, every fetish, every hobby. there is a burning, natural, desire to impress one’s best self upon others- to make outward appearances live up to culturally assigned ideals of perfection. that obsession with acceptance existed long before the internet and will long after. the field of anthropology comes with an ethical responsibility to remain conscious as an observer of the ‘other’. historically, this study has been highly based on field work, cultural immersion, and participant observation.  

the internet provides a fly-on-the-wall, virtual pov, with access to information unlike anything ever before.

 

if you remain open, there will never be a shortage of ways to learn how the universe is comprised of endless reflections and reincarnations of the same matter. your perception of reality is 1 of 1. understand this, and assimilate organically anywhere in the cosmos.