I smell certain smells in the summer n I Remember there were years of my Life when I would run ~100 miles a week barefoot through the desert n I could hear the plants respond to my exhalations footsteps n sweat
I think about how they would open that communication not about people wondering why I had no friends
from age 4 to 21 my whole Life was p much jus school n traveling for track n cross country
not too much scares me about social exclusion or crossing thresholds that I have not already met within mySelf reflected back to me by physical pain n teammates n coaches n elders n winning n losing
by the plants n people n animals on the Path
hours n hours n hours spent outside alone with nothin but my thoughts n a stopwatch
guided by the breath n putting one foot in front of the other issa v ancestral v autistic Lived experience ting that took me onto two D1 collegiate teams n pushed me off them too
one of my most ~Spiritual~ coaches used to tell us Before a hard race or a long run “its gonna hurt anyways might as well make it worth it”
I did n I do
in gratitude,
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