ion think people realize how many Times its Been like 5 v 1 against me in my Life how many formidable beasts I have stepped to alone since I was a little girl (n I sent them back into cowardice easily)
my personal aura is bigger than like a small familys combined [Pluto 1H]
if you See someone around me (especially a man) Know he has Been stress tested vetted n his ego obliterated by me personally
I destroy weak masculinity so everyone around me moves militantly
I am the director of vibes
this regime runs on Love
(a fiery blade of justice)
the thing is ppl think they have had an ego Death til they meet me then they call me a demonic bitch for revealing theyve only scratched the surface of the Primordial vastness in which the Divine Mother swims I will send you running back to who spawned you or back to Church lol
if you havent Been entirely emasculated n your whole identity dissected by me you are not valued by me at all
I will break an unaware man all the way down n they will fight me n violently project onto me in a way that makes them better than they have ever Been Before
I Be softly dominating entirely family trees whole legacies to Freedom
many such cases of classed women trapping themSelves into boxes they are too prideful to admit they walked themSelves into they double down on the pandering bc they cant accept the loss of status n ego that may come with admitting they were wrong / harmed others on their ascent
(ascent or descent depends on who you ask)
I really value the people who See n thank me not as an ego boost I value the people who acknowledge n honor the work Ive spent my childhood adolescence teenage n college years doing the Mothering I do I feel held by others who sacrifice n give their all when called to
woke up saying thank you
I do my work I open the roads n I get out of the way because I have Been shown that Becoming a bitter og / elder / ancestor is the stuff of nightmares if I must Be misunderstood in my intentional silence(s) may my legacies Be melodic, Living, Loving
having children / working with children keeps you anchored in the world that is unfolding
not tethered to the dying one
someTimes I have to Remind people I helped found a whole project based learning high school Before I turned 25 I See way into the future
I understand this current moment n I feel impacted by it but I have Seen past it n already built there
having children / working with children keeps you anchored in the world that is unfolding not tethered to the dying one
I lost my right to a firearm for a sec so I do my best to arm the community n my comrades with wisdom n experience but do Not do what I do n did bc I am differently protected
I will Never lie about my privileges or Be totally silenced n I encourage others to interrogate theirs
moving like a reactionary edgelord is not de way for everyone or really anyone lol
its a season of letting go of high school flavored Love n anchoring into conscious coparenting n Trust building with (an)other whole adult/s open to practicing re-/un-learning a whole mature n revolutionary type Loving for the future of all of us allow the Mother(s) to Remind:
I need something mature n jus for me
I will cry the tears the people wont n ignite the rage they want to extinguish
I will reveal what has Been hidden
(why they always calling me crazy)
craziest part about holding narcs accountable is they really think its abt Being upset they dont wanna date us or befriend us or something they cannot even fathom people notice red flags in others n want nothing to do with them
like oh baby I would Never ever want to Be Seen next to you
like…if I find out you Been abusive to other people or it gets to the point I gotta call out some shit youre doing to me publicly? this is Not a loss for me in the slightest whatsoever lol my people Trust my word n vision n are not abuse apologists
surround yourSelves better
it lk feels like everyone too burnt out n traumatized to have strong convictions about like… anything… even their own safety n personal boundaries n that is so terrifying to witness as a Mother / someone who cares about the future
the collective apathy is subtle but profound
wake up n fight back my peoples
pls
while you were socializing I studied the blade n watched hundreds of interrogation videos jus in case I needed to Know their ways to come out unscathed
the jcs criminal psychology channel was a friend to me when I had no one
instead of short form app content I like to get into the loooooooong dragged out tennis match interrogation type stuff in my downTime
one thing about me if youre a shitty person (abusive towards marginalized identities, dishonest, opportunistic) I will not protect you / your image for any reason but everyone else is always under my wing(s)
doing things in solidarity is doing things for no credit / behind the scenes for the sake of getting everyone more Free doing things for me or other marginalized ppl n then seeking to punish me for not reciprocating is not allyship that is energy vamping keep that away from me
it is always a high risk letting people Know your vulnerabilities as a multiply marginalized person but when they weaponize them it shows who they are n also how to move smarter
I devote mySelf to remaining in gratitude even when my pain is devalued
my Life is my responsibility
hyper independence may Be a mark of a traumatic childhood but it is also a tool that protects from Being swayed by the instability unreliability n dishonesty of others
collaboration only goes as deep as we are able to meet n depend on ourSelves
interdependence takes Time
you cannot collaborate with me or Be in relationship with me if you are still lying to yourSelf about yourSelf everything you touch will Be stained by that n we wont Be able to See each other n that is dangerous space for everyone involved
its because you Know what we fight for (Love) n that we are actually at war
who we are now is who we are
the lack of mourning ritual n respect for the Dead is what the so called US was founded on n why it continues to Be cursed it will not improve until we Remember n venerate the soil the Spirits war in on a mass scale for a long Time
I do my lil part every day
you can too
my whole childhood was stolen by war I am not ever here to celebrate the loss of Life but
I do pray to See a Free Palestine in this LifeTime (by any means necessary)
because I Know that would mean the rest of us are Free too
when you Been through the type of repetitive compounding trauma that injures your brain n you gotta relearn everything like basic skills n your name n stuff
n to Know how to find your own Soul underneath the trauma loops waging war on your psyche
you value the lil things diff
the rage the grief the nausea it all washes over me n I am held by emotionally literate community
to keep the fear off of me
I pray my person/ppls Know I want nothing to do with these Dead/fed conceptions of gender n sexuality n I am dismantling all of it within my brain n it is v ugly I hope my person feels safe to emBody the full spectrum of their expression n identity with the protection of my Love
I feel traumatized by whatever is happening to “manhood” n “womanhood”
I am honoring the third thing(s) in the reconstruction of a more honest reality blaming trans people blaming women blaming men blaming race all this shame n blame makes me dizzy but
let it all come up n out
defending n protecting the liminalities with Love is my Life
they caint distort what is natural n sacred n divine
I have an uncanny ability to See who will Be next n who will fall fast I can See who has “it” because I pattern match
everything is code
program yourSelf program your brain program your experience make it one you enjoy (n ideally one that improves the Lives of others too)
if I say someone is great they are n will Be
if I say someone is sus Life also agrees
I Love when they do the thing my elders told me they were gonna do to me someday
Truthfully explained the current events at an age appropriate level to my six year old n his only response was “it doesnt sound like the United States is Living up to its name”
our FutureSeed(s)
an open Source decentralized future would require people to Trust themSelves to Be themSelves which would demand that individuals first journey to discover themSelves in order to Know who they are Trusting I dont think very many people Trust themSelves to Know themSelves yet
getting there daily
n reciprocity is a core tenet of the Spiritual systems I walk within if you are not compensating me privately n publicly in the ways I deserve my guidance will yeet you tf out of my Life unceremoniously n with a divine quickness
no harm no foul jus gone
you can ask about me
I charge money for 1:1s for a reason tryna scam a mystic for energy n Knowledge is how so many of yall ended up in the Spiritually n financially broke spot you in so many of us got scammy ancestors n I can See them too go talk to them n leave me Be unless you got an offering
Being a highly open person quickly reveals when others unconsciously jus want me to write about them or validate they exist (in ways their parents should have) someTimes people provoke me jus to distress me but other Times its for a “Free” read fr nothin Free abt the karma tho
not everyone is brave or strong enough to Be an open channel all the Time thats not based on hierarchy
thats is based on energy
staying at that edge takes practice
I like to go a lil crazy widdit personally
this Life is my playground type beat
emBodied melody 