tbh I had no idea people were so open about psychosis until I joined tiktok earlier this year
altered states n the policing of them have Been a silent but very strong thread in my familys history n the last 10 years we’ve Seen the worst sides of medical racism n learned so much as a family about the ins n outs of traumas impact on the brain epigenetics n the history of pathologizing revolutionary or divergent (whatever that means) thinkers
I have always walked the line Between realms n translating these visions for mySelf n others in academic n healing settings is how I have paid my bills
up until I Became a parent n dealt with long covid n reached entirely new levels of burnout I always had an adept control over my visions n walk ins n outs
but long story short this sacred island was a part of some of the visions that got me involuntarily admitted to the psych ward last summer
I was never on hard drugs or even tried them lol (my parents didnt believe me until I was tested) or ever trying to off mySelf I jus wasnt making enough sense to others to Be safe in my Body
I believed I was in communion with Her (Santa Catalina Island / Pimu) n the Queen Calafia / Khalifa directly amongst many other violent delusions
at Times I believed I was Her — Queen of California: a matriarchal leader of an all womens warrior tribe on island
n one of the ways I validate my most traumatizing n terrifying (n also deeply embarrassing) alchemical experiences on the Path is by offering mySelf the vision quest I did dream
it was n is real to me
thanks Mom n Dad for making this solo trip possible
I have some things I need to retrieve n offerings to make here
the islands of the Earth are rising again
n speaking loudly
in supreme gratitude,
emBodied melody 