Tag: musings

(re)Birthwork-ing

this year I learned the difference between erasure n Self sabotage

I rested more than I have in many Lives

I kept my side of the stories quiet

I sat with my shit alone n in community

I learned what it means to emBody integrity in an illusory reality

how to take accountability

I fought with the victim mentalities n the ways people have tried to take from me

to emulate my energy

n to move as if I don’t exist consciously

presently

attentively

n honestly

(compassionate forgiveness is the remedy)

I named n (re)named mySelf

I (re)claimed my Birthright(s) n rebuked fake help

I worked through what it means to have multidimensional boundaries

I learned for realsies that hater shit aint really got nothin to do with the Love in me

n I stopped feeling so guilty

for “overreacting” momentarily

for removing my energy

n for Trusting what I Know I’ve Seen to Be True

I stopped feeling so guilty for naming inequalities n for speaking for those who arent able to

I realized how loudly God(dess) guides through me

n as much as I’ve craved belonging n recognition for these offerings

only the Divine can validate work done in the unSeen

I gave too much so blindly Before I Knew who I came here to Be

I was Living out stories that were not written for me

n now I See

it starts n ends with me

I walk with the guidance of many Teachers humbly

from them I have learned who I do not want to Be

n that this Path is one of subtracting

I looked straight into the mirror til I stopped fearing what it was reflecting

I got to the root of my suicidal drinking

I was Self preserving

I found mySelf doulaing me

I removed all shame from my Being

n surrendered to a full range of feelings

this year of initiation cemented my Living legacies n opened the roads for Samadhi

I illuminated my testimonies on the page n through spaceTime

through my journeying I retrieved everything that has Been mine

just to See that it never was

I untethered mySelf from others responsibilities

n redefined Motherhood

I took all of my power back

maintained my sovereignty

I Change the weather

n no fear resides in me

this is the (re)Birthwork I am facilitating

thank you for witnessing me Freeing me

& so it is + so it will Be.

-R

☉ august 2020 ☉

Q: what would your Body say?

A:

bliss ⤑ liminal space(s)

ultimate surrender feels so beautiful – divine unions are overwhelming and important

⤑ supreme gratitude

⤑I am here Now – my Solar return was an initiation

⥅⥅⥅⥅I am writing again

my mind keeps trying to give my power over to put it on someone elses doing

healing

or Being.

-I am the authority over my Life- I am reflected back now in so many extremely perfect reflections

I am in awe. I am so grateful.

thank you God(dess).

it is all Real

I want to write, but I also want to feel it.

I keep trying to give my power + my Knowing + my Healing + my Loving over to some outside Source when

I am the I am.

I have Been and will Be

I am humbled by the God(s) choosing to help me because they are equally whole.

I am so emotional to feel & Know such crystalline confirmation

to have such a Divine witness of my continued initiations.

I am blissful to recognize the layers of effort + sacrifice(s) made for this kind of visibility

may we continue to ascend together

Q: what do we believe about healing?

A:

my healing has Been public

through the Fire

I believe healing happens when you Truly want it to

we can heal ourSelves through anything

but healing is reflection

it is spaceholding

healing is Being fully aware of our actions

consciously illuminating the unconscious

➻ listen deeply for yourSelf ❁

✾

closing thoughts?

gratitude

Heart wide open

I feel confirmation from my community

my ancestors are proud

I am so content & I feel recharged in ways that will allow me to pour back into my Loved one(s) + my community

what a miraculous Time.

I am so grateful

thank you ancestors

I am deserving of this level up

I am Love(d)

& so it is.

  • R