beginning of december 

 

with enough electric energy

you can create lift

but there have always been signs alluding to something more

i remember the first time i understood the life i thought i was in control of  may have been an alternate reality

idk if you call it an ego death because ive had a handful of those

maybe a consciousness shift  thats what the kids are saying

or just a realization and reminder of whats true what ive always spoken practiced preached embodied and been driven (mad) by

maybe ive been living outside of my body ?

i cant be sure if its not the other way around but whichever it is maybe my age my brain development my special relationship with the universe

has taken a startling new level of contact to divinity

or loss of sanity

for the greater good of humanity …?

like im on some type of mission with a defined set of instructions that can only be accessed when everything is aligned

under the guide of a higher force

ive always known it always used it always knew my ability to rationalize to empathize to strategize to organize to predict to plan to heal to be the universe itself in every way

is different

my friends?

theyre from the world and they all have powers

im not better

not more valuable or needed

but i see things in a way that can help other people see the same things that already exist in themselves

none of this is real there is so much love

there is so much love

and ive slept the last few earth years of my life in a different body

people didnt really need me yet but i saw them and i understood

that some things must be felt in the full magnitude of experience solitude and rude uninvited awakening

i watched and learned and surveyed

waited

 

(i am still waiting )

 

i knew that there would come a time where i would be needed

sought after

hated for: honesty and perceived instability

loved beyond measure for who i am

ive been

in a big ass boat on the river of the nile

denial lol

detachment

i let the things get to me i let the love the pursuit take an impulsive turn attempting to avoid my calling

as expected

ive never even read the bible

or been baptized

or taught to pray to any one god or organization

just to love and always ask why

but the thing ive realized in my most recent epiphanic soberingly trance state

is that if

if its not me who?

if not you then?

its so hard when everybody needs you to feel everything but

be brave youve been here before its all in u already

all great artists feel they are instruments of a higher purpose

in every generation every era there is a wave of enlightenment

oh this is gonna be the one!

theyre gonna come down and save the worthy!

i talk to “god” all day

every day

im studying her in every move i make

these are revolutionary times

and from what shes told me

what i know in my soul

is that everything has always been here

always will be

and there are a big set of eyes we all get to choose to put on you see

what i see

is not real

what i see is how i feel

whatever power is behind the plan

certain souls are sent

inclined

able to be receptors of the higher knowledge

when will we have our golden age?

will mankind even be around when it is ready to receive the information needed to make things make sense?

*sigh*

i mean all

all i know is

im just an existential mixed privileged millennial person writing on a self-proclaimed soapbox until i either have another piece of paper proving i sold my soul for the sake of some concept of advancement

a figure altering surgery to prove i have sold my soul enough to look the part

a fabricated reality affirmed in a certain number of profit-seeking likes

or a personal connection valued enough by the general public to sign off on my ideas being valuable or anything remotely extraordinary

 

these are not scary times

these are times where we break into the true understanding of our purpose on this planet and i dont know how to wake enough people up in time

sooooOOOOOOOOooOOoOo

i dance around in the reality weve built with memes avoid organizing the answers and utilizing them because im not sure how to get them out

i think im close

i think i know it all

i think im you and i think youre me

i think if we…………………………

if i just….. teach people? how to see the signs

be an example an open ear stay the course stay in school

but they want to

jsut drink more water eat vegan starboy lit

or ……….idk….play it safe with their minds i guess i get it

…………….fashiuoewpasd;

but its not too much its not too hard its real

its real

and

ill help you help yourself if i can i must

theres no time

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

• read the emerald tablets or bible or whatever u choose critically
  • read everything critically
  • like read it and ask if it sounds right if it feels right if it makes sense
  • write that down and read something else on it
    • compare
• stop fucking up your brain and body for more than the sake of a health / drug trend
• unearth the esoteric nature of all publications
  • google is not a lost tool yet
  • neither are dictionaries books libraries or librarians
  • use tangible resources
  • print it out
  • write it with pen
• abandon your idols be your own
• consider conspiracies
  • what are they
  • why do they sound crazy
  • how are they reinforced and denied in every way on every platform
• consider your parents perspectives
  • readily accept as fact ? or trust what your heart knows goes hand in hand with your culture / upbringing in an innovative well-informed way
• talk to people you know you feel that odd sense of connectivity with
  • listen to it
• touch plants buy them water them
• take pictures record videos save them off the cloud
• having more coincidences than usual? pay attention to the signs in front of you
• let them guide you
• let go

(you know exactly what i mean)

 

wake up be love we need your powers

 

xx

R