11n4nn44 prod. sascha
read a quote somewhere that said something about not writing if you dont feel like writing because all forced things arent great n idk
n at the time eye read the quote
it was like eye had manifested solace for a fear of failure
garnered experience toward the mastery of evading blessings
eye again celebrated an ability to procrastinate
relied on an ability to recreate signs in ways that satisfy the mind
running from the pure art infinitely
enveloping the heart
theres a weird balance between Knowing n running from it
although although although eye Know
what is said what is written
most importantly most obviously
what is done
is……all a part of the greater Truth
eye found myself acting in service this year
resulting in the deepest moments of Self awakening eye have been blessed to experience here in this life
eye honored eye reraised the child in me
n that of my community
Oakland She adopted me
threw me into the fire
n eye understood more deeply
(than ever ! )
the layers of pain sacrifice and godliness that exist in the legacy of my DNA
crystalized helixes elixirs on this journey
eye have been here long but dont think eye have ever intended to stay
eye only ever exist to get free
I AM you because I AM me
dancing far past infinity
eye mean if eye were to paint a picture for you
eyed heavily rely on colors like blue
to keep it closer 222
right at the throat of things
eye feel like my voice rings clearest now
and yea eye Know eye promised eye
would show you howto build a .wav to get to me
4444 when eye really do
cus none of this here is
meant for me
it has been done & will be so
the Truth we all will shortly Know
keep breathing in2 the present moment
the Light fills every cell
and with our breath we can go anywhere
we can See that all is Real
if we can slow down our heads together
come out of them !
n use our hearts to heal
the deciding factor is
(and will be)
outside the mind AND
in the heart of
what U truly FEEL
Welcome to the New Earth.
7h4nk y0u 4444 ch0051ng u5
& so it is
language is limiting lately
beginning of december
with enough electric energy
you can create lift
but there have always been signs alluding to something more
i remember the first time i understood the life i thought i was in control of may have been an alternate reality
idk if you call it an ego death because ive had a handful of those
maybe a consciousness shift thats what the kids are saying
or just a realization and reminder of whats true what ive always spoken practiced preached embodied and been driven (mad) by
maybe ive been living outside of my body ?
i cant be sure if its not the other way around but whichever it is maybe my age my brain development my special relationship with the universe
has taken a startling new level of contact to divinity
or loss of sanity
for the greater good of humanity …?
like im on some type of mission with a defined set of instructions that can only be accessed when everything is aligned
under the guide of a higher force
ive always known it always used it always knew my ability to rationalize to empathize to strategize to organize to predict to plan to heal to be the universe itself in every way
theyre from the world and they all have powers
im not better
not more valuable or needed
but i see things in a way that can help other people see the same things that already exist in themselves
none of this is real there is so much love
there is so much love
and ive slept the last few earth years of my life in a different body
people didnt really need me yet but i saw them and i understood
that some things must be felt in the full magnitude of experience solitude and rude uninvited awakening
i watched and learned and surveyed
(i am still waiting )
i knew that there would come a time where i would be needed
hated for: honesty and perceived instability
loved beyond measure for who i am
in a big ass boat on the river of the nile
i let the things get to me i let the love the pursuit take an impulsive turn attempting to avoid my calling
ive never even read the bible
or been baptized
or taught to pray to any one god or organization
just to love and always ask why
but the thing ive realized in my most recent epiphanic soberingly trance state
is that if
if its not me who?
if not you then?
its so hard when everybody needs you to feel everything but
be brave youve been here before its all in u already
all great artists feel they are instruments of a higher purpose
in every generation every era there is a wave of enlightenment
oh this is gonna be the one!
theyre gonna come down and save the worthy!
i talk to “god” all day
im studying her in every move i make
these are revolutionary times
and from what shes told me
what i know in my soul
is that everything has always been here
always will be
and there are a big set of eyes we all get to choose to put on you see
what i see
is not real
what i see is how i feel
whatever power is behind the plan
certain souls are sent
able to be receptors of the higher knowledge
when will we have our golden age?
will mankind even be around when it is ready to receive the information needed to make things make sense?
i mean all
all i know is
im just an existential mixed privileged millennial person writing on a self-proclaimed soapbox until i either have another piece of paper proving i sold my soul for the sake of some concept of advancement
a figure altering surgery to prove i have sold my soul enough to look the part
a fabricated reality affirmed in a certain number of profit-seeking likes
or a personal connection valued enough by the general public to sign off on my ideas being valuable or anything remotely extraordinary
these are not scary times
these are times where we break into the true understanding of our purpose on this planet and i dont know how to wake enough people up in time
i dance around in the reality weve built with memes avoid organizing the answers and utilizing them because im not sure how to get them out
i think im close
i think i know it all
i think im you and i think youre me
i think if we…………………………
if i just….. teach people? how to see the signs
be an example an open ear stay the course stay in school
but they want to
jsut drink more water eat vegan starboy lit
or ……….idk….play it safe with their minds i guess i get it
but its not too much its not too hard its real
ill help you help yourself if i can i must
theres no time
- read the emerald tablets or bible or whatever u choose critically
- read everything critically
- like read it and ask if it sounds right if it feels right if it makes sense
- write that down and read something else on it
- stop fucking up your brain and body for more than the sake of a health / drug trend
- unearth the esoteric nature of all publications
- google is not a lost tool yet
- neither are dictionaries books libraries or librarians
- use tangible resources
- print it out
- write it with pen
- abandon your idols be your own
- consider conspiracies
- what are they
- why do they sound crazy
- how are they reinforced and denied in every way on every platform
- consider your parents perspectives
- readily accept as fact ? or trust what your heart knows goes hand in hand with your culture / upbringing in an innovative well-informed way
- talk to people you know you feel that odd sense of connectivity with
- listen to it
- touch plants buy them water them
- take pictures record videos save them off the cloud
- having more coincidences than usual? pay attention to the signs in front of you
- let them guide you
- let go
(you know exactly what i mean)
wake up be love we need your powers
i know im technically a gentrifier
but this was a pilgrimage. it took five days before i stopped waking up confused about how i got here. the last year ive been living in a video game. still not sure whether giving into a backseat position in my life is going crazy or becoming enlightened. how do i paint a visceral image with a keyboard? there is a feeling behind the back of your skull when youre tapped in. there is a set of eyes behind your set of eyes. everything is distant and dark you see multiperspectives in 4d. you dont have legs you fly…………………………………..maybe you it call the zone. athletes do it. musicians orgasm on stage . we speak in tongues that are not our own channeling a form that transcends. a resonating infinite golden pattern. we use whatever we humanly can to translate it to make it make sense make sound make shape
like higher than any other thing it cycles deeper it buzzes right behind your bellybutton. maybe its dead relatives leaving you a sign or you say its a coincidence or timing maybe espiritus just sheer luck did the stars align or a man in the sky? meditating or astral projection? because when youre really on that wave youre looking down at yourself from above. there is evidence we are living in a simulation but im not math minded enough to take that route i like to find my version of it waking up next to someone i love in that perfect spot for my face –> neck.
im masochistic when i reach new levels i gut myself in the bloodiest way leave with no evidence.
the burdening pursuit to see yourself in all people the courage to wipe the dust off the mirrors. mirrors everywhere. terrifyingly identical replications of the same needs dreams things. falling in love dangerously often fearlessly deep. confessing my sins in your lap building churches out of making up no i wasnt making dua to your smile thats a bad bad religion.
at night i wake up > once still not sure how to sleep in a bed alone and it scares me that i feel so empowered and so limbless without that codependent connection. whats the line between symbiotic and parasitic? am i pitiful or am i human for longing? because in the way i have been channeling the universe the way i harness the power of being here now feels best in love always all ways
this summer i learned how to introspect in an unplanned absence i learned to grieve for souls ive never met i humbled myself i cleaned up i uprooted upset kept to family i healed over the loss of a home
forgave for forward functionalism
because i had no choice but to follow the signs proving every single thing is conspiring and culminating to create this moment of never ending awakening
i am i am i am
the following real images (courtesy of NASA JPL) provide a public & free mental departure from your stale current perspective
travel @ your own risk !
get yourself aquainted with the scale your insignificance here: http://htwins.net/scale2/ (flash required)
HORSEHEAD NEBULA ~
NASA’s Hubble Space Telescope captures the Horsehead nebula, one of the most photographed formations in the universe, in infrared wavelengths. The tip of the pillar has a slightly higher density of hydrogen and helium, and is laced with dust. This casts a shadow, protecting material behind it from being photo-evaporated.
Astronomers estimate that the Horsehead formation has about 5 million years left before it disintegrates.
‘NASA’s Spitzer Space Telescope captured generations of new stars in IR.
In W5, this star forming region, the oldest stars can be seen as blue dots in the centers of the two hollow cavities. Younger stars line the rims of the cavities, and some can be seen as pink dots at the tips of the elephant-trunk-like pillars. The white areas are where the youngest stars are forming. Red shows heated dust that pervades the region’s cavities, while green highlights dense clouds.
W5 spans an area of sky equivalent to four full moons and is about 6,500 light-years away in the constellation Cassiopeia. The Spitzer picture was taken over a period of 24 earth hours.
This image contains some of the best evidence yet for the triggered star-formation theory. Scientists analyzing the photo have been able to show that the ages of the stars become progressively and systematically younger with distance from the center of the cavities.’
MYSTIC MOUNTAIN / CARINA NEBULA~
A term for a beautiful region in the Carina Nebula capured by Hubble. This cosmic pinnacle is a nursery for baby stars about 7500 light years from Earth. Fast winds and scorching radiation from the super-hot newborn stars give the mystical mountain its striking structure. Hot, ionised gas can be seen streaming off the ridges and wisps of gas and dust, illumiated by starlight. The denser parts of the pillar resist erosion from radiation.
Inside the dense mountain are fledgling (baby) stars. The long gets of gas, one at the top of the image and the other near the center,, (HH 901 and HH 902) are evidence of new star birth. The swirling gas and dust around the young stars allow material to slowly build up along the stellar surfaces.
Carina’s landscape is sculpted by the winds and ultraviolet radiation from the monster stars that live in this inferno. The nebula contains at least a dozen brilliant stars that are estimated to be at least 50-100x the mass of our Sun. See the following image of the ‘South Pillar’ region captured by the Spitzer Telescope:
YIN & YANG OF THE UNIVERSE / DARK MATTER & GRAVITY ~
‘In 1998 scientists discovered that the universe is not only expanding, but that its expansion is accelerating.
In this artist’s conception, dark energy is represented by the purple grid above, and gravity by the green grid below.
This totally unexpected behavior has been called the “most profound problem” in physics, because our current understanding of gravity says that attractions between mass in the universe should be causing the expansion to slow down.
The leading theory to explain the accelerating expansion is the existence of a hypothetical repulsive force called dark energy.
Massimo Villata, an astrophysicist at the Observatory of Turin in Italy, suggests the effects attributed to dark energy are actually due to a kind of “antigravity” created when normal matter and antimatter repel one another.
According to Villata, the keys to accelerated expansion lie in large-scale voids that are seen scattered throughout the cosmos.
These holes in our map of the universe—which can each be millions of light-years wide—are inexplicably empty of galaxies and galaxy clusters. The nearest hole to us is called the Local Void, bordering the Virgo supercluster of galaxies.’
NASA JET PROPULSION LABORATORY // SPACE IMAGE ARCHIVE
NATIONAL GEOGRPAHIC // “IS DARK ENERGY REALLY ‘REPULSIVE GRAVITY?'”