but there have always been signs alluding to something more
i remember the first time i understood the life i thought i was in control of may have been an alternate reality
idk if you call it an ego death because ive had a handful of those
maybe a consciousness shift thats what the kids are saying
or just a realization and reminder of whats true what ive always spoken practiced preached embodied and been driven (mad) by
maybe ive been living outside of my body ?
i cant be sure if its not the other way around but whichever it is maybe my age my brain development my special relationship with the universe
has taken a startling new level of contact to divinity
or loss of sanity
for the greater good of humanity …?
like im on some type of mission with a defined set of instructions that can only be accessed when everything is aligned
under the guide of a higher force
ive always known it always used it always knew my ability to rationalize to empathize to strategize to organize to predict to plan to heal to be the universe itself in every way
theyre from the world and they all have powers
im not better
not more valuable or needed
but i see things in a way that can help other people see the same things that already exist in themselves
none of this is real there is so much love
there is so much love
and ive slept the last few earth years of my life in a different body
people didnt really need me yet but i saw them and i understood
that some things must be felt in the full magnitude of experience solitude and rude uninvited awakening
i watched and learned and surveyed
(i am still waiting )
i knew that there would come a time where i would be needed
hated for: honesty and perceived instability
loved beyond measure for who i am
in a big ass boat on the river of the nile
i let the things get to me i let the love the pursuit take an impulsive turn attempting to avoid my calling
ive never even read the bible
or been baptized
or taught to pray to any one god or organization
just to love and always ask why
but the thing ive realized in my most recent epiphanic soberingly trance state
is that if
if its not me who?
if not you then?
its so hard when everybody needs you to feel everything but
be brave youve been here before its all in u already
all great artists feel they are instruments of a higher purpose
in every generation every era there is a wave of enlightenment
oh this is gonna be the one!
theyre gonna come down and save the worthy!
i talk to “god” all day
im studying her in every move i make
these are revolutionary times
and from what shes told me
what i know in my soul
is that everything has always been here
always will be
and there are a big set of eyes we all get to choose to put on you see
what i see
is not real
what i see is how i feel
whatever power is behind the plan
certain souls are sent
able to be receptors of the higher knowledge
when will we have our golden age?
will mankind even be around when it is ready to receive the information needed to make things make sense?
i mean all
all i know is
im just an existential mixed privileged millennial person writing on a self-proclaimed soapbox until i either have another piece of paper proving i sold my soul for the sake of some concept of advancement
a figure altering surgery to prove i have sold my soul enough to look the part
a fabricated reality affirmed in a certain number of profit-seeking likes
or a personal connection valued enough by the general public to sign off on my ideas being valuable or anything remotely extraordinary
these are not scary times
these are times where we break into the true understanding of our purpose on this planet and i dont know how to wake enough people up in time
i dance around in the reality weve built with memes avoid organizing the answers and utilizing them because im not sure how to get them out
i think im close
i think i know it all
i think im you and i think youre me
i think if we…………………………
if i just….. teach people? how to see the signs
be an example an open ear stay the course stay in school
but they want to
jsut drink more water eat vegan starboy lit
or ……….idk….play it safe with their minds i guess i get it
but its not too much its not too hard its real
ill help you help yourself if i can i must
theres no time
read the emerald tablets or bible or whatever u choose critically
read everything critically
like read it and ask if it sounds right if it feels right if it makes sense
write that down and read something else on it
stop fucking up your brain and body for more than the sake of a health / drug trend
unearth the esoteric nature of all publications
google is not a lost tool yet
neither are dictionaries books libraries or librarians
use tangible resources
print it out
write it with pen
abandon your idols be your own
what are they
why do they sound crazy
how are they reinforced and denied in every way on every platform
consider your parents perspectives
readily accept as fact ? or trust what your heart knows goes hand in hand with your culture / upbringing in an innovative well-informed way
talk to people you know you feel that odd sense of connectivity with
listen to it
touch plants buy them water them
take pictures record videos save them off the cloud
having more coincidences than usual? pay attention to the signs in front of you
wasnt sure what to expect my first day but the email said to get there at 8. i was raised on military time – on time is late. got to the school an hour and a half before i needed to be and walked around the campus. langston hughes hand painted on the walls promising positivity. the combination of crayons glue paper and that weird plastic cafeteria food smell are comforting. it definitely feels like a safe zone you even have to be buzzed into the gate by security!
i was taken aback by the demographics. my uber driver called the area ‘little tiawuana’ an offensive mispronunciation of a city i grew up walking distance from. before i was enculturated in my own i was spanish speaking code switching in a whole different way. silver toothed baby smiles broken sentences arent pitiful theyre familial but i was confused. i thought oakland was black ? where are all the black kids? why are all the teachers out of an anthropologie magazine? not the academic kind…..my first day
my first day i was told by other teachers people electing to work in an underserved area what schools in east oakland to avoid
because thats where the “bad kids” are
the moment i set foot on the steps i was an educator a leader a mother a reference point for how to be because thats what school is and thats what educating positions do
me? what? why?
teachers were created to instill and direct culture
and often the correction of or erasure of the other
who makes it and who doesnt
where do i fit in here? is this right? where does my privilege passion identity and perspective help rather than perpetuate the same interesting dynamic?
perpetuate the same interesting dynamic
why are all the seemingly passionate empathetic people in my generation leaving to satisfy their civic duties for humanity overseas?
why are they leaving these innocent babies to suffer under the downfall of a system that was not built to protect them?
the hope of our future
to suffer under the downfall of a system that was not built to protect them?
when we need so much collective help HERE? in every way
in every way
i was making exit plans for when shit goes down
because no matter if youre a pessimist optimist athiest or person of god(s)
we can all agree it has never been a matter of i f
but always w h e n
i decided im going to stay here
this is my home and im going to protect it
maybe i was blessed to see the world at a young age for a reason
i know that theyve got it figured out elsewhere
much more than us
but also not the fuck at all
i know that we are all struggling in the same ways facing the same perils
we are having a kind of social revolution and awakening in the united states that many cultures / societies experience repeatedly
resulting in death
they got toilets older than our entire country
look it up
just because our disneyland is falling apart
doesnt mean we quit
fact check whatever conspiracy whatever scripture you want
read everything you can join a cult club write a blog go back to what you know you need
TALK TO PEOPLE
is the weed really helping? you know the alcohol isnt. idk about pills but definitely flush em homes find god
is it a coincidence that the narrative about “drugs” is softening? should we be numb right now?
prayer comes in all forms
we understand the fragility of the virtual world and how much potential we have for construction and destruction
social media has been around for long enough to where we get it… we see it for what it is and we
we arent impressed by it because we have mastered the nature of it
because we have mastered the nature of it
so now what?
now we build fam
now we use it as a tool
while we still can
dont make fun of effort if you cant say youre doing the same
but also never believe ur own hype
accept delayed gratification as real gratification again
because thats what will sustain
invest in longevity
because just as fast we are realizing and actualizing our voices the intersection of worlds that exist in our millennial mess
they are too
wtf does disney want with twitter yo?
what could they possibly want ….?
they see the power we have as a unit
when we question everything and we come with the muhfkn receipts
they promised us so much. its a small world…so go to college! be a doctor! the promised land! love all!
this is a caste system
my peers are homeless.
and for the racially challenged readers im not just talking about my black peers – u cornball
they dont want us to succeed
ascribe whatever personification to it u need
they dont want us to love each other
they want this tool to be divisive oppressive filtered fake versions of the things that make us feel human in the physical world
the virtual reality is somewhat unavoidable
but we are rushing it
did you know that evolutionarily speaking our guts are still somewhere back a couple thousand years
and our diets based on the agricultural revolution ($$$$$$)
conflict with our hunter-gatherer primal eating habits
read about it
a result of our intellect and brainpower
we are rushing our physical bodies
making them sick
and we cant figure out how to cope so we self medicate because
is it too late?
does it matter?
am i hopeless?
make your own grow your own smoke your own love your own protect your own invest your own
tell them you love them
love without expectation
since i got here i have noticed a shift in my life
ive been on some kinda minimalistic self-journey
in a way that i try not to spend all of my time working out but acting on
ill look/be lost if i have to to figure it out
because i know im not the only one
if your voice shakes or whatever whatever youre going the right way
i dont care if im perceived incorrectly or trivially whole time
ill take the token role the oreo slander the fake woke the lost rich girl the bitch the boy the athlete the lucky the sad .,m./.,.,m///,…
i will take it all
none of its new
weve been here before weve been here the whole time we will be here again
i do the best i can with it
i have the older generations looking at me with an empty toolbox
hoping their struggle wasnt in vain and that they prepared us well enough
because without scaring us
theyre urging us and telling us that they dont know what else to do either
no one ever has lol
sitting around talking and posting about our wokeness not doing a got damn thing
but making us anxious and unable to function as our species always has
we have the time to be extra existential when we are all living for ourselves
most of our parents had kids by now
another interesting dynamic
this week i learned that:
the youth cannot read………..
maybe we fell into the generation where the cyclical nature of politics personhood artistry astrology happen to be shitty
and thats just the way it is
so im accepting all the fleeting realizations im acknoweldging it and im letting it pass
im working on me as a collective we
im going to do it openly and honestly when i can
because i do not enjoy being misunderstood
the way we interact now makes it impossible not to be
so u can catch me constantly searching for the balance between passion and practicality
constantly searching for the balance between passion and practicality
the balance between passion and practicality
between passion and practicality
passion and practicality
i know im technically a gentrifier
but this was a pilgrimage. it took five days before i stopped waking up confused about how i got here. the last year ive been living in a video game. still not sure whether giving into a backseat position in my life is going crazy or becoming enlightened. how do i paint a visceral image with a keyboard? there is a feeling behind the back of your skull when youre tapped in. there is a set of eyes behind your set of eyes. everything is distant and dark you see multiperspectives in 4d. you dont have legs you fly…………………………………..maybe you it call the zone. athletes do it. musicians orgasm on stage . we speak in tongues that are not our own channeling a form that transcends. a resonating infinite golden pattern. we use whatever we humanly can to translate it to make it make sense make sound make shape
like higher than any other thing it cycles deeper it buzzes right behind your bellybutton. maybe its dead relatives leaving you a sign or you say its a coincidence or timing maybe espiritus just sheer luck did the stars align or a man in the sky? meditating or astral projection? because when youre really on that wave youre looking down at yourself from above. there is evidence we are living in a simulation but im not math minded enough to take that route i like to find my version of it waking up next to someone i love in that perfect spot for my face –> neck.
im masochistic when i reach new levels i gut myself in the bloodiest way leave with no evidence.
the burdening pursuit to see yourself in all people the courage to wipe the dust off the mirrors. mirrors everywhere. terrifyingly identical replications of the same needs dreams things. falling in love dangerously often fearlessly deep. confessing my sins in your lap building churches out of making up no i wasnt making dua to your smile thats a bad bad religion.
at night i wake up > once still not sure how to sleep in a bed alone and it scares me that i feel so empowered and so limbless without that codependent connection. whats the line between symbiotic and parasitic? am i pitiful or am i human for longing? because in the way i have been channeling the universe the way i harness the power of being here now feels best in love always all ways
this summer i learned how to introspect in an unplanned absence i learned to grieve for souls ive never met i humbled myself i cleaned up i uprooted upset kept to family i healed over the loss of a home
forgave for forward functionalism
because i had no choice but to follow the signs proving every single thing is conspiring and culminating to create this moment of never ending awakening
NASA’s Hubble Space Telescope captures the Horsehead nebula, one of the most photographed formations in the universe, in infrared wavelengths. The tip of the pillar has a slightly higher density of hydrogen and helium, and is laced with dust. This casts a shadow, protecting material behind it from being photo-evaporated.
Astronomers estimate that the Horsehead formation has about 5 million years left before it disintegrates.
‘NASA’s Spitzer Space Telescope captured generations of new stars in IR.
In W5, this star forming region, the oldest stars can be seen as blue dots in the centers of the two hollow cavities. Younger stars line the rims of the cavities, and some can be seen as pink dots at the tips of the elephant-trunk-like pillars. The white areas are where the youngest stars are forming. Red shows heated dust that pervades the region’s cavities, while green highlights dense clouds.
W5 spans an area of sky equivalent to four full moons and is about 6,500 light-years away in the constellation Cassiopeia. The Spitzer picture was taken over a period of 24 earth hours.
This image contains some of the best evidence yet for the triggered star-formation theory. Scientists analyzing the photo have been able to show that the ages of the stars become progressively and systematically younger with distance from the center of the cavities.’
MYSTIC MOUNTAIN / CARINA NEBULA~
A term for a beautiful region in the Carina Nebula capured by Hubble. This cosmic pinnacle is a nursery for baby stars about 7500 light years from Earth. Fast winds and scorching radiation from the super-hot newborn stars give the mystical mountain its striking structure. Hot, ionised gas can be seen streaming off the ridges and wisps of gas and dust, illumiated by starlight. The denser parts of the pillar resist erosion from radiation.
Inside the dense mountain are fledgling (baby) stars. The long gets of gas, one at the top of the image and the other near the center,, (HH 901 and HH 902) are evidence of new star birth. The swirling gas and dust around the young stars allow material to slowly build up along the stellar surfaces.
Carina’s landscape is sculpted by the winds and ultraviolet radiation from the monster stars that live in this inferno. The nebula contains at least a dozen brilliant stars that are estimated to be at least 50-100x the mass of our Sun. See the following image of the ‘South Pillar’ region captured by the Spitzer Telescope:
YIN & YANG OF THE UNIVERSE / DARK MATTER & GRAVITY ~
‘In 1998 scientists discovered that the universe is not only expanding, but that its expansion is accelerating.
In this artist’s conception, dark energy is represented by the purple grid above, and gravity by the green grid below.
This totally unexpected behavior has been called the “most profound problem” in physics, because our current understanding of gravity says that attractions between mass in the universe should be causing the expansion to slow down.
The leading theory to explain the accelerating expansion is the existence of a hypothetical repulsive force called dark energy.
Massimo Villata, an astrophysicist at the Observatory of Turin in Italy, suggests the effects attributed to dark energy are actually due to a kind of “antigravity” created when normal matter and antimatter repel one another.
According to Villata, the keys to accelerated expansion lie in large-scale voids that are seen scattered throughout the cosmos.
These holes in our map of the universe—which can each be millions of light-years wide—are inexplicably empty of galaxies and galaxy clusters. The nearest hole to us is called the Local Void, bordering the Virgo supercluster of galaxies.’
NASA JET PROPULSION LABORATORY // SPACE IMAGE ARCHIVE
NATIONAL GEOGRPAHIC // “IS DARK ENERGY REALLY ‘REPULSIVE GRAVITY?'”
“a human being can not only, but must, be born again and led back into the ‘prima materia'”
prime material: melanin: carbon: primary component of all organic matter
there are two aspects of alchemy. one is the study of stones or precious metals. ‘Arabian Moors’ taught europeans in the middle ages about the spiritual powers of alchemy, but this aspect has been omitted in history for, ironically, melanin related reasons. alchemy became known as the mystical process of turning lead into gold, which, to the moors, was a secondary process. the original process involved turning the base metals inside you to gold. that gold represented your crown chakra, your aura, and all the metals inside you. this is called the illumination of (melanin) metals.
Principles for the Synergy of
Melanin & Sacred Stones //Rocks of Ages by Ras Ben
Figure 1. Eumelanin
Principle One: Explore the biochemistry of melanin, then correspond to elements within the mineral kingdom.
As stated in Part One, the key biocrystalline molecule present in the human body is melanin. Melanin is a:
-A Super-conductor of the high frequency radiation and neural transmissions.
-A semiconductor of sound and heat energy.
-A Conductor of the body’s ionic charge
-A resonator of visible light
Melanin means ‘Black amino’ and is a color pigment composed of a hydrocarbon chain which has various amino (nitrogen-based) compounds attached to it. It is carbon that gives melanin its Blackness. Carbon is the organizing molecule that gives melanin its structure. It is carbon that gives melanin the ability to absorb energy and bind with other molecules while retaining stability and coherence.
Beyond carbon, there are two other elements that are important to the structure of melanin: copper and sulfur.
is incorporated into the melanin molecule through the amino acid tyrosine. Tyronsinase is an organometallic amino compound that is organized around carbon, nitrogen, and copper. This amino acid is: the catalyst for melanin reproduction, and the amino compound that facilitates melanin’s ability to conduct many Electro-magnetic frequencies.
is incorporated into the melanin molecule through the amino compound cysteine. Cysteine is an amino compound that is organized around sulfur, nitrogen, and carbon. This amino acid facilitates melanin’s heat and energy transference. In other words, it allows melanin to create or release heat as is needed for the body. cysteine also cleanses and purifies melanin by ‘burning off’ toxic elements that have been absorbed within melanin.
The biochemistry of melanin indicates that there are at least three important elements necessary for maintenance of healthy melanin – Carbon, Copper, and Sulfur.Stones that contain these elements may be used as tools for harmonizing and refining how these elements are incorporated and maintained within melanin.
The harmonizing is possible because stones that contain carbon, copper, or sulfur are in resonant affinity with melanin. Resonant affinity means ‘like vibration’. When things are in resonant affinity, it means that they share the same frequencies and are joined in a unified energy field. For example, when a radio is tuned into a radio station, it is in resonant affinity with the station’s broadcast antennae. Both the radio and the broadcast antennae are resonating the signal, and the radio is connected to the antennae through the broadcast signal.
Resonant affinity allows for mutual harmonic correspondence. In other words, through resonant affinity, two things can harmonize, refine, and realign one another. Through resonant affinity, stones that contain carbon, copper, or sulfur can harmonize, refine, and realign melanin. Each element refines melanin in its own way.
Carbon based stones tend to improve melanin’s ability to absorb energy and bind elements, yet still retain a balanced, healthy structure. This gives carbon-based stones anti-carcinogenic, anti-aging, anti-mutagenic properties. Some carbon-based stones include: Aragonite, Calcite, Carbonite, Carbon Quartz, Smoky Quartz, Diamond, Magnesite, Malachite, Melanite, Rhodochrosite, and Smithsonite.
Copper-based stones tend to electrify melanin. Copper tends to increase melanin’s ionic potential, and stimulates melanin to produce an abundance of free electrons for the body. Copper-based stones also stimulate melanin production. Some powerful copper-based stones include: Azurite Chalcopyrite, Chrysacolla, Copper, Covellite, Cuprite, Dioptase, Malachite, Tetrahedite and Turquoise.
Sulfur based stones tend to cleanse and purify melanin. These stones also facilitate melanin’s ability to transform heat into physical energy and visa versa. Sulfur based stones include: Cobaltite, Gypsum, Lazurite (Lapis Lazuli), Marcasite, Pyrite, Sulfur Details of some of the more powerful of these stones are explored in Psycho-Spiritual Healing.
Skin melanin, perspiration, and certain metals create energy which melanin then converts into metabolic energy for the body.
In other words, when electrolytes within sweat come into contact with metals adorned as jewelry, ionic exchange occurs. Melanin absorbs the ions exchanged in the process and turns it into food for the body. Details of some common metals worn as jewelry are as follows:
Gold is an elemental metal which is very electrifying. It provides a catalytic, positive charge to the body when interacting with melanin, sweat, and sunlight.
Silver is an elemental metal which is magnetic in polarity. Worn with gold or copper, an electromagnetic polarity is established. The result is a low-voltage current conducted through skin melanin. The melanin may then transform this energy into nourishment for the body.
Copper has basically the same electromagnetic qualities as gold, but has the extra benefit of being in resonant affinity with copper-based melanin. Wearing copper jewelry feeds and nourishes melanin with one of its central compounds.
Hematite is a stable, metallic compound of iron and oxygen. Hematite means “blood stone,” and recognizing that iron and oxygen are the two component elements in blood, it is clear how hematite received its name. When interacting with melanin, sweat, and sunlight, hematite catalyzes the assimilation of iron and oxygen into the blood, thus strengthening the entire physical system.
is a metallic compound which means “Fire stone.” It is an iron-sulfite. As stated, iron is a central element of blood. Sulfur is the central element in the amino compound cysteine, a biopolymer component of melanin. When pyrite interacts with melanin, sweat, and sunlight, it electrifies and energizes both blood and melanin.Pyrite in turn cleanses melanin and fortifies blood.
Striated stones have the potential to channel energy into the near-melanin structures of deep within the central nervous system.
Striated Stones have parallel grooves recessed down the length of the stone. These parallel grooves create channels on the stone. These channels can focus large amounts of energy in one linear direction. This feature makes striated stones well suited for channeling energy deep into the physical body (ex: the spinal column).
These stones are excellent for ‘grooving’ healing energies into the neural-melanin that lay deep within central nervous system. Used regularly, striated stones strengthen the nervous system so that it can conduct higher and more intense neural frequencies for longer duration without showing signs of stress.
Moreover, what we know as ESP (Extra-Sensory Perception) is actually LSP (Latent Sensory Perception). Latent means dormant or unawake. Everybody has the potential to sense unseen realities, but the skill has to be awakened. Being able to tune into unseen energies involves activating and awakening mind-powers that are centered in melanin plexus structures located throughout the spinal column. Down the length of the spinal column are ganglia of nerves, also known as nerve plexus centers. These nerve structures are highly melanated neural networks that assist the brain in coordination of the physical body. Striated stones, because of the highly focused, intense energy they emit, are the perfect tools to activate these melanin plexus centers in the central nervous system.
Specific striated stones are as follows:
Tourmaline manifests in a variety of colors, the most common being black, green, red, and watermelon (green, red, and clear). Tourmaline has pyro-electric potential, and discharges ionic charges when exposed to heat or flame.
Selenite is a fragile stone in the gypsum family. The clarity of striated selenite is the most spectacular of the mineral nation; its ability to reflect and refract light even exceeds clear quartz crystal. Selenite has affinity with the element selenium, which is a vital component of the pineal gland. Excellent for balancing mind functions related to that gland.
A sky blue stone with pale white streaks, kyanite is one of the most highly charged stones in the striated family. The blue energy is cooling and calming to the body, yet the high-energy nature of the stone is invigorating. Holding kyanite or laying it on the body is good way to relax and recharge. Or, one can use the stone as a wand to direct energy into a specific body area.
A soft pink, translucent, striated stone, Kunzite is made for ushering the pink ray of self-love and self-forgiveness into the most hardened heart.
Topaz can channel a strong beam of light from the crown of the head throughout the entire spinal column. The color of the light depends on the color of the topaz used. The most common colors of topaz are gold and blue.
A highly translucent stone that also has complex terminations in conjunction with striations, Danburite is similar to Selenite in that it channels radiant light deep into the spinal column.
Principle Four: Quartz Crystal enhances melanin’s ability to perform as a multi-spectrum conductor.
Recall from Akoben that melanin is a:
-Super-conductor of the high frequency electromagnetic radiation.
-A semi-conductor of sound and heat energy.
-Conductor of the body’s ionic charge
-A resonator of visible light
Comparing the energy potentials of clear quartz crystal and melanin, interesting similarities and contrasts exist.
Clear Quartz crystal is a:
-Super-conductor of the high frequency electromagnetic radiation.
-A semi-conductor of power frequencies
-Conductor of visible light and infrared radiation
-A resonator of all forms of radio waves.
The synergistic application of melanin and quartz crystal is the foundation for a spiritual technology for the new millennium. Combining these two multi-spectrum conductors is the way for people of color to harmonize and harness the full spectrum of vibrations within creation.
Alchemy Unveiled // Johannes Helmond
Rock of Ages // Ras Ben
Assata Shakur Forums // Thread: Melanin Wellness Part I: Melanin and Sacred Metals and Stones
interactions with peers online and in travel have inspired a constant exploration of the undeniable role that the infamous internet plays in our conceptions of culture. behind the guise of an onscreen alias, support can be found for every niche, every persona, every fetish, every hobby. there is a burning, natural, desire to impress one’s best self upon others- to make outward appearances live up to culturally assigned ideals of perfection. that obsession with acceptance existed long before the internet and will long after. the field of anthropology comes with an ethical responsibility to remain conscious as an observer of the ‘other’. historically, this study has been highly based on field work, cultural immersion, and participant observation.
the internet provides a fly-on-the-wall, virtual pov, with access to information unlike anything ever before.
if you remain open, there will never be a shortage of ways to learn how the universe is comprised of endless reflections and reincarnations of the same matter. your perception of reality is 1 of 1. understand this, and assimilate organically anywhere in the cosmos.