Octavia Butlers EarthSeed Teachings felt like a new religion I needed almost a decade ago n like one the world will continue to need Now n beyond as it wakes up
bc as much as Change n God were both forced onto me growing up around the world on military bases I do not handle Change very gracefully as an adult
n maybe I never did but Before I was Not able to have a say in it
there was so much pent up in my Body that only the Earth could Love n hold
when I arrived at the possibility of Change Being God(dess) somehow that framing worked for me n helped me to surrender fully to a LifeTime of devotion n work towards healing my lineage(s)
we make many sacrifices as parents n Living here as (co)parents on shared family property is the latest work
we had to let go of this big tall tree recently n for some reason it really affected me but I had to move through my own feels to Teach a process to my sun
n it stood so tall n marked our house from afar on our quiet old lil street
someTimes under full Moon transits an owl would come n perch on the very tippy top n hoot at me
I was worried the owl wouldnt come back n that the tree would Be angry at me for failing to protect it from the landlording tendency to rush n desecrate the Earth to earn more money quickly
it Became a symbol n somewhat of a collateral sacrifice in the process of me learning how to speak up n protect my Home as a Mother
I’ve learned how much this world disrespects n walks all over Black Mothers
how much they seethe at my Self awareness n ability to Live unconventionally without shame
I create new ways n I require stability n safe space
this tree Taught me so much about Change n standing tall
about staying rooted
I did many yoga flows w it towering over me n it witnessed one of my Lifes worst experiences when no one else was there to See or protect me
Before it was cut down it gave me many seeds
n we planted 4 more
now our apple tree is blossoming with bigger petals than we’ve ever Seen
I am grateful to this land to my many ancestors n especially the ones who are plants flowers herbs n trees
I will continue to bow to them n listen for their Teachings testimonies n governance
in gratitude,
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