of all genders races n classes too
now that I can See it
I run as soon as I do
there is a specific bloodlust on this land
its a perceivable detectable pattern
when folks enjoy sending others emotionally spinning / keeping them confused / feed strategic info / lie often
that is predatory (demonic) behavior n it is abusive (especially to other neurodivergent ppl
like within the narcissistic x autistic dynamic)
n some people (mostly unconsciously) Self soothe this way by causing others chaos n pain
tragically some types of personalities are very conscious n intentional about the chaos they weave because it gives the broken n afraid little child part of them a sense of control
True healing offers that little child other ways
besides coercing deflecting manipulating then blaming because no one showed them how to hold n handle their own emotions without using someone else as a proxy
n my Heart feels empathy n compassion when I remove mySelf n Lovingly suggest:
go to therapy
(the trauma recovery, somatic, n relational kind)
bc thats a very big no thank you baby
idc how sexy you are or who you Know
I am not going for the push—pull
no one is deterring my healing this year
or making me question mySelf or turn on other women n femmes
lately the villainizing of my boundaries has kinda Been turning me on n thats a new development
a LifeTime of bullying turned kink maybe
I worked so hard to feel good about choosing me
how erotic really
old dogs old tricks n none of it works on me
get Free
emBodied melody 