(re)Birthwork-ing

this year I learned the difference between erasure n Self sabotage

I rested more than I have in many Lives

I kept my side of the stories quiet

I sat with my shit alone n in community

I learned what it means to emBody integrity in an illusory reality

how to take accountability

I fought with the victim mentalities n the ways people have tried to take from me

to emulate my energy

n to move as if I don’t exist consciously

presently

attentively

n honestly

(compassionate forgiveness is the remedy)

I named n (re)named mySelf

I (re)claimed my Birthright(s) n rebuked fake help

I worked through what it means to have multidimensional boundaries

I learned for realsies that hater shit aint really got nothin to do with the Love in me

n I stopped feeling so guilty

for “overreacting” momentarily

for removing my energy

n for Trusting what I Know I’ve Seen to Be True

I stopped feeling so guilty for naming inequalities n for speaking for those who arent able to

I realized how loudly God(dess) guides through me

n as much as I’ve craved belonging n recognition for these offerings

only the Divine can validate work done in the unSeen

I gave too much so blindly Before I Knew who I came here to Be

I was Living out stories that were not written for me

n now I See

it starts n ends with me

I walk with the guidance of many Teachers humbly

from them I have learned who I do not want to Be

n that this Path is one of subtracting

I looked straight into the mirror til I stopped fearing what it was reflecting

I got to the root of my suicidal drinking

I was Self preserving

I found mySelf doulaing me

I removed all shame from my Being

n surrendered to a full range of feelings

this year of initiation cemented my Living legacies n opened the roads for Samadhi

I illuminated my testimonies on the page n through spaceTime

through my journeying I retrieved everything that has Been mine

just to See that it never was

I untethered mySelf from others responsibilities

n redefined Motherhood

I took all of my power back

maintained my sovereignty

I Change the weather

n no fear resides in me

this is the (re)Birthwork I am facilitating

thank you for witnessing me Freeing me

& so it is + so it will Be.

-R