writing to my peers without sounding preachy without privilege unsuspectingly running unchecked is a practice
‘no way you’re a gentrifier’ an uber driver said to me like it was some sort of grade to my humanity i think she defined them by how open their hearts are
interactions with peers is competitive banter
a judgment a gradation a fact check a detachment from the heart from True understanding Knowledge and connection to be first best or right
aligned to what definition? what virtues define your righteousness? how would your Teacher your Guide your God[(-s)-desses)] grade your in class participation? your practice?
uninformed debate is a detrimental desecration of collective communication
of Power
walking the edges of my mind has been as equally enlightening as isolating
\ do you have to be isolated to understand? to travel? are there better ways to use what ‘traditionally american’ values we know we know to speak on our passions? our rights?
working/existing in the oakland unified school district has been
well its been
there are a lot of problems. problems i use my heart to feel my eyes to see my mind to study…and my Truths to try to fix
right now i am shopping for my masters degree and it is one of the only ways i feel powerful
being centered before buying into the game is not a lost hope
deeply study the way people move have moved and will move before you must sell any parts of yourself to them
i have been taking my time because these periods of privileged personal growth have been pivotal and prioritized
aspects of ascension administer answers and aloneness allows advancement
perspective a personal pilgrimage
and identifying the problems with the education system is an experiential journey
for people of color an extended consciousness to daily reality
writing about things documents them forever – with a potential to time travel
building ‘better’ schools only concentrates issues
charters catalyze capitalism and conviction of kids
teaching happens at the mercy of your administrator (i.e the local gov’t)
implementation of knowledge is intentionally indoctrinated
although i have been deeply inspired by the leaps in inclusion of technology to curriculums i see attention spans that are tech reward driven
traditional work is rushed to apply concepts to a more innate medium
real regulated reading requirements are rare
how do we create more balance there?
how do we create culture cultivating community plus parental participation under the systemic circumstances?
how do we find more faculty on campuses that can see with all their parts?
do you have to sell out to make things relevant? do you have to use increased force to be heard?
can a system be changed without carnage?
no matter how long i think how much i write i fight being trapped in internalized isolation
a downward infinite spiral of super self aware helplessness
forever fighting fear of failure
(define failure)
Seeing that cynical sentiments cease to succeed to self sacrificial service
scholarly success sometimes solicits spiritual sacrifice
pathetically pieces of paper permit power
so i buckle up and down
alter the screenplay of my own reality to continue to nurture the balance between passion and practicality
exit mind
enter heart
n stay ready
lane riley 